I on purpose have not blogged much lately...did not want to get bogged down writing about this past year...
I gave up one year of my life for something that in essence does not matter...that saddens me...
I mistakedly thought i could make a difference and I have recently and bluntly been shown that
that I was wrong, very wrong...
I guess I am depressed...I cannot get past some hurt feelings, and I totally hate feeling like this...
that is one thing I truly wish my mom taught me differenly, how to not hold grudges...one thing I cannot do by myself, and not for lack of trying...since April (the start of the "one year of my life,") I did let a lot go for the good of something, but this one time, I am just having a really hard time and not sure where to go from here...
am going to take one day at a time (I really should be thinking of one hour at a time...)
and see where that gets me...
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