I am old...period...and I am not sure exactly when it happened...it like happened overnight...don't even want to say how old I will be in a little over one month...OMGosh...
I realize that it is mind over matter but, all of a sudden I feel old...
the couple across the street from me ( & I totally respect them so much) take really good care of themselves but, she was just 70 last month and he will be 80 next week...and they totally do not look or act like their ages...they both still hold down jobs and he never sits still...always out doing yard work or washing cars, etc...but, they eat healthy and walk all the time (she is a nurse...) I want to be more like them...
when my kids were little, they were sickly and we saw lots of specialists for them...pediatricians, immunologists (Chris' low immunology), infectious disease specialists (Tim's osteomylitis), asthma specialists (both Sam and Chris), gastro (Chris' esophagus) surgeons (Chris & Sam) eye doctors, well you get the picture...at one time they even thought Tim had leukemia...so we were there a lot, a whole lot and saw many many doctors...up until a certain point I myself was fairly healthy...hadn't had to see many doctors...then it started and I guess that is when I started getting old...
now it seems that as each specialist is added to my list, the older I get...the older I feel...I really don't like doctors and I hate hospitals...I wait until the last possible moment before I go for anything wrong...(remember the time I waited so long after throwing up blood??? and I needed 4 blood transfusions???)
every pill that they add to my growing list makes me feel all the older...
it also brought senior(itis) all the more closer and hit home when my ex brother in law just died...word is he died from a massive heart attack at home...we were close at one time, and he was someone that you thought would be around forever...
this latest surgery thing is scaring me, especially when they say how extensive it is and how much blood loss and how long I will be hospitalized...I am more worried on how my house will look when all is said and done...
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